21st Aug' 2005
(In remembrance of the sad phase....that's now a lifetime away)

Mother, mother
I'm no more
I ran
from you,
your eyes,
your voices in my head...
I ran
from your shadow
shadowing me
I ran from
your life,
my death.
But
shadows have a way
of catching up
from the front
when you look back
Mommy knows best
all think
but cannot see
the woman in her,
in me
the fire inside
solid rock
the serpents
under porous glass
the love, the hate,
the tricks, the trade
Wishes cannot unjumble
the lost words
themor,hermot,morthe
Wishes cannot untangle
time from the cobwebs
spun by hearts of gold
and sticky intent.
In those
you forgot to live,
to be, to hear
or to break free
from the travails
of a captured soul
by that man
you called hon
and in incongruous hate
passed them all
to your son!
Oh, you mummified lot
as the corpse begins
to rot
your heart still bleeds
through hollow eyes
and murky tears
haunt the world
that you mollified
with your purpose.
love me
but leave me
and go to
where you belong
we will survive
in your virtual absence
Pray
make it real
leave me
for your sake
and put
the barking dogs to sleep
And let me be
I'll find a way
to live!

Invocation

8th Nov' 2002

Seek me,
my lovely muse
seep into
my eager hope
charm it
with a secret spell
and make it
want to live enthused.
Let grow
upon its land austere
the sapling
of a buried thought
fence it
from the brutal rage
that grips
a battling heart-shaped spear.
Don't feed it
nurse it
potions blind
else turn the soil
foul and soot,
lest grubby words
and needless weeds
foray into the
robust root.
Then sunshine,rain,
and weather stern
of lauding and rejection
will lead it
to the glowing skies
of polish and perfection!